It has been some time since I posted an update on my battle with Ms Nature, a sunny Sunday morning seemed appropriate. I know some people get their updates on my well being from the blog so for those that are interested please read on.
My left knee is in good standing and relatively trouble free. On occasion it grumbles about loadings but given a day or two of limping it resigns itself to the task in hand. Like many parts it has set a new normal threshold which involves a deep throbbing but I’m used to that now. The ‘auto launch’ feature that occurs when it locks whilst descending stairs continues to be a source of amusement. I only experience auto launch once every two to three weeks and have become most practiced at chastising those behind me for the ensuing surge.
My left shoulder remains a source of noise as if seeking lubrication, occasionally coupled with pain. One interesting feature is that I cannot sleep on my left shoulder, it rejects this position most adamantly. My technique of minimising medical intervention means that I don’t actually know what happened to it, hey I’m sure its not important.
The donor site on my leg is fading, albeit very slowly. I was considering tattooing a box around it for prosperity but, since it looks like it will return to normal, I have chosen not to. It is amazing when I recall the infections and the desperate battles to dressings on that it is so healthy looking now.
Lefty is still making very small gains in supination and pronation, see I’ve learnt the terms as well. There is a constant ache in my hand and I have to work quite hard to keep the tendons stretched as scar tissue is trying to pull my fingers in. Sometimes the pain is quite unpleasant but generally it behaves quite well and we have an understanding on the acceptable level of pain. The scar itches sometimes and I still have the odd clamp marks which nobody has been able to explain. I think I caught the scar in a nighttime scratching session as there is a small patch that bleeds occasionally but other than that its pretty healthy.
Righty is almost dry and hasn’t had to be covered in weeks. I understand that I will only ever have minimal skin coverage on the tendon so the mass bleeding will occur whenever it is injured. For the technical amongst you this is due to the removal of the fascia following compartment syndrome. The scar itself has filled in a little although I am still unsure where the ‘spare’ skin went. Adduction remains a problem but this is in part limited by the adhesion to the tendon so I shall just keep pushing. Righty is more prone to sudden debilitating pain but the underlying level is not so bad. Lots of clonking and cracking associated with odd sensations the same as lefty but I guess that is to be expected.
Exercise involves upper body work with free weights at home and at least twice daily press-ups. I have now moved on to slow press-ups with pauses at both stages and varied spacing of my hands to extend the muscle groups worked. I have developed hard patches on my right knuckles where I still can’t place my hand flat for press-ups. My hair is staying in place as well, it is growing back slowly but I don’t have to vacuum after every hair brushing.
Mentally I am struggling a lot with the fact that I am still a work in progress, I hate not being able to move on. I am moving through the steps that I need to and am extremely lucky to have very good friends supporting me. The frustration is inevitable and I cycle between planing the next steps and avoiding thinking about the future. In good news I have not seen any dream pubs sold off while I am ‘indisposed’ so it remains only a pause and not a setback.
Meantime I await Ms Nature’s next entertaining attempt to pull a losing battle back.