It has often been said that I am stubborn, not only do I wholeheartedly agree with this but I take it as a compliment. It is interesting to observe that in the past when I have departed from my characteristic stubbornness in relationships it has not been a success so I will stick where I am thanks. Normally my stubbornness shows itself in useful ways, it allows me to stick with a path despite distractions and to persevere with difficult tasks. I can even cite recent examples thanks to Andrew’s laptop and the 20 hour fight to rebuild it. People say things like “I wouldn’t have the patience” but it is not a matter of patience, I get as annoyed and frustrated as the next person. What keeps me going, especially with technical challenges, is a stubborn and steadfast belief that something can be achieved. There is no task that cannot be beaten you just need to apply yourself and sometimes apply yourself again!
I always considered that stubbornness was a trait, a conscious part of one’s character but lately I have reason to doubt this. One of the things that has changed since the accident is that I cannot sleep on my left shoulder, it is uncomfortable to start but after 20 minutes it really hurts. In fairness this is not a great loss and it is a situation that is readily adapted to, or so I thought. The shoulder has started developing a real slow start to the day which can be entertaining when you think that my left knee already has its own lay in. If I forget the knee and topple then I need to make sure that the right arm takes the load because the left shoulder wakes up with the same grace as a hung-over teenager! I had considered this new-found reluctance to start the day with the rest of my body yet another example of Ms Nature’s attempt to impart union rules on my limbs and shrugged it off, pardon the pun, but I now realise that there is something else afoot.
On a couple of occasions recently I have awoken for the call of nature and realised that I am on my left shoulder. It is a quick and very painful realisation, but this is not how I usually wake up so what is happening? It would appear that after my conscious mind goes to sleep the sub-conscious goes into full stubborn mode and I sleep on the shoulder that I know I cant sleep on. The brilliance of this is that by turning me away from this side by the time that I wake up I am none the wiser and the stubborn battle can continue without my interference. I do believe that I have taken stubbornness to a new level by arguing with myself!
In other news I have to share a question raised on the excellent ‘On the Wight’ website following the storms that battered my beloved, and sadly distant, isle last night. The simple question “does anybody know if the newspapers made it to the island today” brought about a flurry of enquiries and I realised that the entire island could have been without a TV guide! All was ok you will be pleased to know but it is this uniqueness of island life that I love.